couple things i wanna say to people

i'll just number them and write my thoughts down. couple of them might be for the same person. find what i've got to say to you.

1. i feel like you used me. somehow. but i dont know why.
2. i caaaannot believe you just feel like this. im sorry.
3. you need to take this opportunity as a chance to build on your weaknesses. you're still one of us.
4. you need to communicate. you're the captain of your ship and you need to take charge.
5. i just think that you need to stop criticizing people for every little thing they do. it's different when its continuously done wrong and if it's one simple mistake. you're starting to sound like a broken record and it's getting irritating. just cool down.
6. you are a very goood friend and i think you should really go for what you truly want. it's time to take a hold of yourself and take that one step forward whether or not there is something in the way.
7. im glad we're good.
8. you dont know how much i've been thinking about you. you dont know how much im willing to do just so things will get back on track. but honestly, things take time before it unfolds and im running a marathon. im not being impatient anymore.
9. i shuld have given it to you when you asked for it. now i dont know how the heck imma give it to you -_-
10. you need to stop thinking so weak and useless. you've improved and gotten alot beter in all aspects. now all you gotta do is ride that confidence and cruise through the waves.
11. you need to take things seriously. we can lose it all in a heartbeat thanks to you.
12. you have lots of things to clear up to me. i gave you attention and my time to help you sort things out. but now you've turned your head the other way. thanks.
13. day 1 you're cute. day 2 you're ugly. you're trying too much and everyone sees it. be what you are, not what you're not.
14. yooooooou. get in shape you lard-eating fatass.
15. you're getting comfortable with me. thats cooo.
16. please take what i say into consideration and think of all the consequences it might cause in the near or distant future. im just being protective of you. but i trust and support your decisions.
17. keep up the outstanding effort. we need that energy. makes my job alot easier.
18. i dont look for the initiative from you anymore. yet, it's really easy for me to think that you're just whatevers about it. i say im fine, but its making me sad. but im getting better with letting my other emotions take over and let my mind ride on other thoughts. but dont think i dont notice it. i want you to prove yourself to me. but im not gonna ask. i want you to speak to me. but im not gonna bring it up. take your time. or attend to your own work and more important things to be taken care of.
19. i see you around and i wanna say hi like the old days. but something in me holds the words back and forces me to ignore you. i guess thats what happens when you've done what you did and have said what you said. im sure i've already proven myself to you. but you've just got too many faces. im sorry if you blame me for all the mess. i miss you though.



96 days have passed.
and i look back and look on forward and i see what's in store.
this is what i want, but im not gonna be so quick with anything.
i just wanna work on things one point at a time.
96 days...
countless more to go.

walnut tomorrow.
come support.