from the past

experiences, small things would bother me.
but i mean now that things have seriously changed, it didnt take me all that long to hit the "refresh" button.
the only thing that upset me was i made a big deal about it. and i guess i shouldnt have,
cos it was clearly an accident.
and i teased you about it and made it seem like a big deal.
it could be a big deal, but it isnt. or idk. is it?
and yeah.
sorry.
but i wish you couldve just told me.
cos i felt like with finding out from someone else, i felt like you didnt want me thinking anything and i was assuming things and yeah..
and it seemed to bother you.
and i knew right away, damn i blew it.
like if it seemed like it bothered you that i think you initiated it or you actually did what you did (although it never crossed your mind), then i think that it might also bother you heading into this direction.
or something.
like im killing myself inside and at the same time the thought of you not wanting me to know/think/assume things by indirectly letting me know is...
eh.

but like i said before, it shouldnt be a big deal.
its all a misunderstanding.
a mistake? or an accident?

idkkk..
prolly a mistake.
cos yeah.
sorry i wont think so freely anymore.
and i should know better or yeah.
im kinda out of it now.
haha im confusing myself

sorry.
im just gettting ahead of myself, i guess.